Yesterday was a pretty tiring day for me. So i met Ito Sensei in the morning. We had lunch at india express or was it india cusine. can't remember but it was something like that. Sensei paid for my lunch and even gave me a souveneir from Japan ! Shes really nice.
Then i went to Yohei's house to drink, met up with yukiko, minako, kyoko, masa and peter. Really really fun, we even had batsu game yesterday. ( batsu game is punishment game ). HAHAHA! peter got his ass kicked, it was so funnnnnny. oh well... we drank and drank and it was time to leave and they even had souveneirs for me. I was so happppppppy. Then we went to Minsokchon to drink, met up with the tajima guys from the ramen time shift. I think everyone was pretty tipsy and im pretty sure everyone had fun. Today i might go drink again with them, but i don't know if i can go cause i got no transportation and its pretty far away from my house. And i'll feel bad if i had to borrow car from my friends to go there, besides im gonna be drinking, i dont want to get myself or the car in the trouble.
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i ate kangaroo and aligator meat burgers today and yesterday. well, kangaroo meat makes you feel super thirsty. As for the aligator meat, its pretty juicy ! im washing my clothes now, wearing my last piece of boxer shorts and pyjamas, thinking what to do for the rest of the day. i have 3 more nights here in America, Today, Tomorrow and the Day After. Its pretty crazy, cause time really passes us by so fast. its crazy. and i got tons of things i havent finish doing, packing, cleaning the house, closing accounts etc. its a mess indeed but i do hope everything can be settled by tomorrow so ill have more free time on saturday.
oh well!
ps. i woke up and was pretty upset someone asked me " why the fuck you have a new number when you are going back for good". i dont think that person meant any harm but i was pretty disturbed by his/her words. weird.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Thursday, August 20, 2009
i slept at 9am yesterday, woke up at 7pm later that day. then i slept again from 1am till like..5am. i thought maybe i could go get some breakfast, but i thought the idea of getting breakfast alone is pretty crazy.
man look at what my brother wrote on my facebook wall.
Do anything you want but 1) Do not disturb my sleep. 2) Do not drive my car unless you have a valid singapore license
wao.
commander of the family huh? i can't be bothered man. i'll just listen my music using my $300 headphone. no car? don't worry, i'll get myself one soon, besides its not like i never driven a car before. im worried about getting a job and getting a paycheck. if thats settled, everything will be fine. i was even thinking of going to china, but i realised i shouldnt escape anymore. face the reality ! man im bored. im always awake when everyone is asleep. it feels weird, it feels weird to be the only one awake. oh well. i hope i can shape my life to the way i want it to be,
big fat paycheck, but also at the same time allowing me to do a job that i like. if i can do that, i'll be dead happy.
i wonder how things will go in the future, this 2 -3 years.
12 more days to go, before im going back. im trying to make the best out of it, ( my remaining time in san diego of course ) but apparently, i dont know what to do. or should i say, theres nothing to do. everything is so stale, so dead. no one is around, im bored. so so bored.
and the worst part is, i got no money to spend. i just spent $450 USD in costco buying vitamins, now im so broke i had to eat JIB for dinner. i think thats pretty miserable isnt it ! zzzzzzzzzzzz
but i guess going to SF might be a good thing afterall, i hope it will be an enjoyable trip although i somehow think that this is gonna be quite a boring trip. i cant imagine myself on I5 again, 7 hours of driving to SF and another 7 hours of driving back to san diego. yikes, its pretty shitty isnt it. time wasted on driving is the worst, lamest and shittiest. theres nothing you can do. i wished someone new that i dont know will come and join our trip so theres something to be learn about about the person. but i guess its not possible. oh well
i cant sleep. thats because i woke up at 6pm yesterday/.
happy birthday my dear friend in singapore, i hope you had a blast for your 21st. 2 more weeks before im going back, i seriously think im gonna miss here. but i do think my time in san diego is up, everyone in san diego is going to leave soon, some already left a long long time ago.
and, soon you'll see a X on my blog webpage, cause geocities is closing down and my stuff, such as this background pic is not going to be stored there anymore and honestly, i dont know where else to upload pictures. i still remember a long long time ago, before we had facebook and friendster, people upload their photo albums onto imagestation ( i think it is owned by sony ). anyways, i shall leave america in harmony and i'll definitely miss this place. theres still a lot of places i havent go to, such as newyork, chicago and so forth. it makes me sad to even talk about this, cause i'll start questioning myself what have i done for the past 4 years in america? well.
my friend is coming back to america from indo to the states. its kinda weird, while you come back here, im gonna go back to asia. then again we gonna be 8448 miles apart from each other again. but i guess the consolation prize is that im closer to mr bruins, and of course super close to my mom! thats a yay and a boo! i love to near my mom, but as soon as she starts nagging i go crazy.
people back there, don't be too shock when you see me cause im really round like a ball. like, seriously like a ball. i wonder how's my life going to be like when im back. my friend from singapore airline was saying, how im not going to change my life if i stick to my rule of, not going out so often, taking buses and only going to shaw plaza. its lame i know, but i think its a pretty pleasant life isnt it.
and i just discovered something really shitty, i lost a receipt that i had. i was actually going to use that receipt to refund my external cdrom bay that i bought a couple of days ago. now im .... argh. shit.
you know the older you grow, the definition of friendship is getting more and more confusing; or rather to be exact, i don't know the definition anymore. how far can a friendship go? I wonder time to time if theres a limit or something to it.
here comes continue with my obsession about money, and my worries for my future. the things i want to do, the things i want to change, the things that i can't change, the things that might happen and the things that might not happen. theres too many question marks.
i think if coming to america has changed me anything, it would be my obssession with money. i wonder why am i satisfied driving a mercedesbenz, or am satisfied with my pathetic life style that i can spend money without worries, eating fine cuisines, from a $5 meal to a $100 meal for daily meals, or buying things that i want. i wonder why im even satisfied and be happy about such a life style.
i don't know anymore. i just want to feel at ease.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Saturday, August 01, 2009
There are people who dare to spend money . There are people who just want to save money .
______ above quote is not related to the entry below! ___________
My few days of this life has revolved around money and money. I called someone today and was disappointed till the point, i don't know what to say. seriously, its your life. i don't know what singapore made you into, its just... disappointing? i'm more surprised that you're satisfied with your life that way. I hate to say, but i don't want to be like you, i don't want to be like you. I will do all it takes to not become like you. i won't call you a dumbass, since your choice wasn't exactly wrong but i will PROVE you wrong. ( actually i don't know if i can do that, but i will try ! )
" we are limited, not by our abilities, but by our vision. "